Number One, I posted a "how to quit being so selfless and considerate" like-Cosmo-but-so-much-friggin-better quiz on Cheesy Bloggers.
If I've learned nothing over the last several months by fighting nasty-ass Depression and Anxiety, I've at least learned this: I simply MUST find a way to ease up on myself. I need to check-in once in a while. I need to give myself the same credit and forgiveness I'd give others. I need to make room.
My old habit of shoving every simple (yet unwanted) emotion into the depths of my soul only meant that I eventually maxed out my capacity and the whole effing shit-show just exploded black depression bile and red anxiety toxins all over my life.
Hence the quiz. This quiz will gauge how well you treat yourself - regardless of how well you treat others. You should take the quiz (HERE) and email it to CheesyBloggers@gmail.com. Then I'll "evaluate" your responses with my very "advanced" and "scientific" scoring "strategy".
Number Two, I applied some of my new "mindfulness" depression and anxiety strategies EXPERTLY.
A douchebag was sorta trying (inadvertently, I think) to take advantage of me to support his own ego trip. My first inclination was to just go along with it and hope he'd get bored and move on. I could see through him, so it didn't matter. I was also afraid that if I blew him off he'd badmouth me. And I thought it'd just be easier to put up with it, rather than nip it in the bud.
Well, despite my reservations, I NIPPED THAT SHIT IN THE BUD, man. I politely expressed my disinterest in having anything to do with him and saved myself the pain in the ass of letting him walk all over me.
This may sound stupid, it's a huge accomplishment. I said "No thanks" even though my gut reaction was to say, "Well, ok, I guess, if I have to, and if I can't get out of it, and if it might turn out badly."
Number Three, I got home only to find the most exciting possible thing in my kitchen (aside from Hubby). I found a UPS package! From my darling friend Miss Chicktuition! I entered her photo contest and she sent me my winnings! This was seriously the chocolate topping on my peanut butter cake. Thanks Jacqui!
|My "Stay Away From My Mug" Mug; my "Terribly Witty Ideas By Me" notebook; my pink pens and stickies; and a ridiculous amount of adorable chocolate that got eaten within five minutes. And of course, Miss Chick's button.|
*** You should know that I wrote this earlier this morning before my day at work went to shit and then my car starting making the worst noise in Canada. But whatever.